These past two weeks have been interesting, to say the least. Iain prefers to be awake at ungodly hours. I have come to the conclusion that, since this breastfeeding thing hasn't really worked out, he gets really fussy when he hasn't eaten his fill. However, when it takes an hour or more for him to eat enough (with many, many breaks throughout), feeding him at 3 a.m. has become our new nightmare.

We have already met with a wonderful lactation consultant who sat through an entire feeding with me, but implementing our new knowledge just didn't work out. Iain simply will not latch on properly. No matter how wide you open his mouth, and no matter how accurately you smush his face onto my boob, he will invariable pull away a bit and only suck on my nipple. It no longer hurts -- just feels like Chinese water torture and every nerve in my body just wants to fling my limbs around and scream.

What is most frustrating is that, despite his latching-on problem, he is gaining weight like a champ! His two-week check-up was today and he has already gained ½ of a pound and grown an inch!!!! The doctor said he doesn't need to come in for a four- or six-week check-up so he won't go in again until 20 March for his two-month dealy. So, he gets enough food, but I feel tortured. We talked to the lactation lady again and Jon and I decided that I will pump and feed him a bottle instead of feeding him at my breast. I know it isn't the most ideal situation, but it sure beats the tears and frustration we have experienced and I really want to avoid formula for as long as I can. I want to enjoy nourishing my son, not dread the thought of it.

But other than all those problems, we are adjusting to being a family. Jon and I love our little guy so much! He is so incredibly beautiful! An adorable anecdote (I guess that's what you would call it): Jon thinks of a new nickname for Iain everyday. "Jello," "Goatboy," "Munchkin," etc. But the one that gets most oft repeated? "Sparkplug"! Do NOT ask way, as neither of us knows! "Come on, my little Sparkplug, let's go to the store." It is too cute!

I already think about the future. We are going to have to punish him for wrong doings (my little Iain doing something wrong?!); we are going to have to talk to him about sex!!!; he will get married one day!!!! ACK!!!! Phew, take a breath! I must remember to let him stay little!

Well, that is all from here. We are loving our son and hope that he grows to love us. I hope we don't screw up too badly ;o)

Love, Amy, Jon and Iain