I have to keep checking my math. I have gotten sooo stooopid lately and I am waiting to screw the weeks up so they don't add correctly. I mean, I have to think really, really hard to get it right!

Anyway, I think that I have gotten bigger in the last week. I have had Jon put my sneakers on for me because leaning over is so uncomfortable and inhibits my breathing -- PUHLEEESE! I am only six months! This is so out of control!

Jon and I had a long heart to heart the other night and we both confessed that we can't wait until I am no longer pregnant. Neither of us likes me this way. It has NOTHING to do with how I look, but the inconvenience of it all. I am always tired, always in some sort of pain. I don't like not being myself. I miss freedom of movement, and look forward to having uninhibited sex again, instead of carefully thought-out movements to avoid pulling muscles or leg cramps. I call it 'slow-motion sex'. Sigh....

Also (and I know I will get comments on this), it just feels like that with our personalities, actually HAVING the baby around will be less 'inconvenient' or 'intrusive' to our life than my being pg. Sorta like getting married -- after a week you can't remember what it was like NOT being married. We are both task oriented people. Give me a job or responsibilty and I will be great. Jon says, "Tell me to change a diaper, give the baby a bath, or feed him. THAT I can do. THAT I can wrap my head around." Poor guy -- women tell him to remember to be supportive of me, to understand me, to help me while I am pregnant. I wish they would stop because he is awesome and it just makes him feel guilty and confused. It is difficult living up to such vague standards. All I can say is that I wouldn't want him to do anything different than what he is doing. JON ROCKS!!!! GO, Honey! GO, Honey!

Well, with that all said and done, I am looking forward to our anniversary on 1 November. We are going down to the beach and staying in a hotel for 31 October and are looking forward to a quiet time with an ocean view. Ahhhh, the beach in autumn.....

Love,

Amy H & Squidge

P.S. Oh , yeah, I have my glucose test on the 2nd -- wish me luck!