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December 3, 2002
First I am sorry it has taken me so long to update. We have had a rough three weeks! So let the story begin...
November 16th- 3:30 am my water broke. I called to DH who was sound asleep. After much calling he woke up, and told me that it probably wasn't my water, just come back to bed. Mind you, it was not a huge gush of water....it was more like a trickle. I went back to bed, but every time I moved it "leaked" more. I finally called the doctor and she had me come into the hospital. We get to the hospital, after DH had a shower and cleaned his sneakers (he didn't want his son to see how dirty they were!! At this point I just wanted to go!) We called my parents on the way to the hospital to let them know what was going on, and to see if they could come to our house because we were having kitchen appliances delivered- go figure!
We get to the hospital and I get all checked out and they admitted me right away. I wasn't having contractions, so they started me on pitocin. Around 9:30 am I started to have contractions, but nothing to serious. We just relaxed, tried to sleep etc. Around 11am I couldn't take the contractions any more, and asked for an epidural. At this point I was 4cm dialated. My parents arrived at 12:30pm Phil and dad went to get something to eat. My mom stayed with me and we talked about when she had me and what it felt like etc. When I saw my mom, I knew she didn't feel well. She was very jaundice from the cancer. When DH and dad returned (2:00pm) I told Phil I thought I needed to push...he again told me there was no way I could go from 4cm to 10 in less then an hour (boy did I have him fooled!!!!). I told him to go get the nurse, I thought it was time. As luck would have it, I was fully dialated and ready to push. My mom and dad left for the waiting room and the nurses got the room ready for me. I could not feel the contractions so the nurse had to tell me when to push. She was very nice, I could not have asked for a better nurse, but she was chatty- so for the first half hour we chatted instead of pushing. Finally half way through the epidural was not working and they had to call in for more drugs. Also in the midst of the contractions hurting like hell, I started to throw up. What a lovely delivery!!
At 3:36pm Ethan Lawrence was delivered! He weighed 8pds 13 oz and was 21 3/4 inches long.
I feel great and was ready to go back to my old schedule!
We came home Monday the 18th of November. On Thursday morning my dad called to talk to Phil. He said my mom had a really rough night, and thought maybe if we could should come home to see her. Right then my stomach sank and I knew things weren't good! We packed up the car and Ethan and headed to PA. When we got there, my mom had retained so much fluid that her eyes were flat aganist her face- she was so bloated. She hadn't eaten anything since Monday and hadn't used the bathroom since Monday. On Friday- after much pleading we called the doctor and they admitted her to the hospital. The doctor told her that her kidneys had failed and the cancer took over her liver. There was nothing else they could do for her.
We went to visit her each day in the hospital- and took Ethan to see her. On Sunday she had slept much of the day and her breathing was very labored..she woke up once to tell Ethan she loved him and good bye. On Monday we received a phone call that if we wanted to see her, we should get to the hospital right away, she was unresponsive and her blood pressure was very low. My dad and I went to the hospital, she opened her eyes and smiled at us. She took two breathes and was gone. She passed away on Monday November 25 (my orignal due date).
God works in mysterious ways! It has been a very difficult two weeks for me. Not only am I overwhelmed with being a mom and trying to get the hang of that, but I also have to deal with the death of my best friend- my mom. I am glad she was able to see Ethan, we believe she was holding on for him to come into this world.
He has been my strength along with my husband to get through this hard time. It truely is the circle of life!
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