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October 12, 2001
Boy! Life is so busy now that we have two kids! Things are so jam packed. We have made so decisions concerning our family this week, so I thought I would update my diary.
I watched and waited to see if I would ovulate while I am still breastfeeding. I had cervical mucus two weeks after I went off the birth control pills, but my temps didn't show the thermal shift that would indicate ovulation. My mood has been very grouchy. My skin looks horrible from my body trying to figure out what's going on. Suddenly things seem extremely overwhelming. So I think that's from the hormones going crazy. After much thought and discussion with Kirt, we decided to wait until Camryn is weaned to try to conceive again. I really enjoy nursing and she does so well with it. Dr. Parr said she would put me on Clomid once I weaned. My guess is that won't happen until 9-12 months though. Kirt reminded me that there was no hurry as long as my endometriosis was under control, which it is since I'm not ovulating. It felt like such a relief to hear him say it was okay for me not to be ready. He's so understanding and supportive. I'm a very lucky girl!
Decision number two was that we decided that I will not be teaching at the Mother's Day Out anymore after we get out for Christmas break. I knew before school started that I wanted to stay home with Camryn and just send Baylie since this is her last year before kindergarten. I didn't trust myself though, so I am having to correct that mistake now. It was a VERY difficult thing to decide. The director is like a mother to me. Mary and I have always been close. Missy (her daughter) has been my closest friend since we were 4 & 5 years old! I feel in a way I'm letting Mary down, but I know that this is best for my family.
On the other hand, I am very excited that I will just be a mommy (vs. a teacher too) after a couple of months! All the special things that go on at school I miss or just see Baylie from afar since I have to stay with my class. It will be great to get to go with her on her field trips, help with class parties and everything. By the way, she's in Missy's class. I think that's very ironic. My best friend who used to pinch me if I wouldn't let her Barbie be Sandy (from Grease) is now teaching my daughter right from wrong! How hilarious!
I also wanted to expalin why these big changes are coming up now. First of all, I felt so tired, and run down lately form going off the pill. I know that lead me to feel overwhelmed, which made me evauluate what I needed to focus on and what I needed to eliminate. My marriage, church and kids obviously were things that were not optional to me, so that only left shool. I worked full time when Baylie was a baby (until she was almost two), so I really didn't want to miss the things I did when she was a baby. Also, Kirt and I have FINALLY gotten our priorities figured out. The bible spells it all out very clearly: God, our mates, then kids. I just didn't have the time to keep the house clean, the kids feeling like they got enough attention, and trying to get ready at night for school, not to mention trying to clean once the girls were asleep, was taking away time with my hubby. See the problem?
Anyway, I am only explaining all of this so you girls will understand why certain decisions were made when you were little. Now on to daily life...
Baylie's not feeling so well. This is the second time in two weeks that she's had some sort of cold/allergy problem. She's not getting better onthe medication I've tried either. We have Camryn's 4 month check-up and shots on Monday morning, so I plan on asking Dr. Mitchell about Baylie too. I have never asked a doctor to look at the other child while it wasn't her appointment, but I'm sure I won't be the first mom to do it!
Kirt and I are started a bible study/small group that is focused on marriage. I think it will be very enlightening. When we went to the oreintation, we felt like we had something to offer, in a way of support, for a few couples who were struggling. We also felt like there were some couples we could learn from.
A very close girl friend of mine is having serious marriage problems. I feel so helpless. I know the only thing I can do is be there for her and pray. This has also effected my decision to stop working and focus on our family. I mean, the things that are going on could be an one of us if we don't focus on what's most important. I think that the tragedy of 9/11/01 has really helped people refocus there lives.
I found out today my poor friend Jennifer is in the hospital. She has been having back problems since before Trey was born. This week it had gotten really painful again. Yesterday a disc ruptured. It is totally pinching off the nerve to her left leg. Poor Jenn, she has three kids at home, one of them is only 12 weeks old. She was told she could not lift anymore even after the surgery. I don't know how that will work with a new baby. Not to mention Trey is 6 weeks younger than Camryn, but passed her up in weight over a month ago.
Speaking of weight, Camryn was 12pounds, 14 ounces last week (18 weeks). It's so strange to me to have a baby on the small side. Baylie has always been off the charts.
I wanted to say "Yippeeee!" for Nino who is expecting her second baby in June.
Dawn
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